Wednesday, February 6, 2019

Chapter 31 - Not Just Another Grain of Sand

"Babe, I think you did great, even when you lost your cool."  Jon assures her, sliding his hand down her back.

Beth takes a big gulp of the water he had just handed her, and after she swallowed hard she replied, "I cracked."

"You acted as you should have.  Her questions were tough and we knew they would be.'

"But why did she have to ask about the dream that you had about me dying?  How does she even know about it?"

He moves in closer to her, slides his arm around her to try to push, direct, her toward the car, "I told her.  She is our friend, Beth."

"But did she have to know about Brianna wanting to kiss me in my casket?"  Jon can feel Beth slightly tremble, he can feel that she's tense.  "Why did she go there?"

"It's her job."  His hand on her as she slides into the seat of their car.  "She did what I paid her to do."  Beth looks up at him, remembering they did ask for that.  They wanted all of their dirty laundry aired.

"She came at me like I had done something wrong."  she gets out of her mouth as the car door closes.  She watches her husband walk around the front of the car.  She inhales deeply, looking passed Jon to Savannah and her crew tearing down and taking apart their equipment.

Once the car is in drive and they start to exit the cemetary, Jon states, "She wasn't targeting you, you know that."  He doesn't believe his own words, but he knows that she needed to hear that.  He needs, rather, they need to put the past where it belongs.

When they arrived back home, Beth could see Jon was exhausted.  As they walked into the house, she grabs his hand, "Why don't you go lie down, I'll make dinner." She smiles as he looks over at her, "Let me take care of you, for once."

He pulls her close and kisses the side of her head,  "I'm okay, why don't we make dinner then after that, let's go for a bike ride.  We can take the littles."

Walking into the house leaning on her husband she admits, "A bike ride would be real nice."  Her memories go back to the better days of their life when things were so much easier and activites were abundant.   They were so active as a couple, as a family, but under the Dalton cloud she never really thought about how stifled they really were.  "We haven't done that in a long time."

Once through the mud room and into the rear of the kitchen, they paused and heard silence.  Jon looked to Beth, with a hint of question, "Do you hear that?"   

Beth walks over to the side of the refrigerator where they have a community chalk board.  "Well, it looks like they're all at grandma's and they're going to spend the night." The grin on her face growing.  

Jon pulls his wallet out of one back pocket and his phone out of the other and leans on the counter. "Hhmm, what should we do?"  His grin just as big as hers.

Her head is still on the bike ride, "Well, considering the day we just had why don't we go on a bike ride?  We can go into town and get a bite to eat."  She winks at her husband, "Come on, let's get changed."  She reaches across the counter for his hand.  Hesitantly he takes her hand and together they change their clothes.

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As Beth trips, trying to tie her tennis shoe she catches Jon looking at his Ipad with a scowl on his face.  She doesn't say anything to him at first, not wanting to get into his business, but she can see his body language change.  "What's that all about?"  She plops down on the bench in her shoe closet.  "That wasn't a good look."

He turns to face her, "It's an email from Paul."

"About?" she questions him, tieing the other shoe.  

"Tentative tour dates." he tosses the Ipad on the bed, "I told him that we weren't ready for me to go back on the road."

"Who isn't?"  she stands up and reaches over for a sweat jacket, "Go."

He laughs at that, "Go?"  

She walks up to him, "If you're ready to go back out, go."  Her lips land on his cheek, "When does he want you to leave?"

"The first date is May 1st."  He waits for her reply.

Beth pauses, "Um, that's my birthday."

Jon laughs at that.  "Do you still want me to go?"

They take their bike ride into town and have a bite at Barnacle Bills with a couple of beers.  They try to keep the conversation light, but it never works out that way.  With a gulp of her last beer, Beth asks, "How long of a leg are you planning?"

He shruggs his shoulders.  "No idea, but it can't be that long.  The album is almost 2 years old now."

"Then why go?" she inquires.  "It's not needed to support you guys or even the manufacturing costs."

"It's a contract thing, you know the drill."

"I know you also have the best lawyers in the industry that can get you out of it."

He stands, indicating that he was ready to leave, as the bill has already been paid, "That's not me, you KNOW that."  He then winks at her.  "Let's get home.  I'd like to enjoy this evening with my wife."

Beth smiles as she stands to leave with him, "You want to get home to watch the evening news."   Not willing to admit that she wanted to see it too.

Savannah had told them that a 90 second snippet would air within NBC'S nightly news, alluding to the rest of the story being aired during the Today show the next morning.  

"Don't you?" He asks, taking her hand and leading her to their bicycles.  "I know she'll do what we set her out to do.  She's great at her job."

Beth admits, "I do want to see it, but I'm a little skeptical.  I hope she spins it in our favor and makes Dalton, Brian and Dorothea looks like total assholes."

"She will."

They enjoyed their evening bike ride home and once they returned home, quickly they showered and found comfort in their shared bed, munching on a fruit and cheese tray, with a bottle of 1928 Rosé.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Chapter 30 - I Don't Know Where To Begin



"Thank you for joining me on this beautiful day in New Jersey.  I'm on assignment today, out here in Raritan, New Jersey at the local cemetery, where I have met with Jon and Beth Bongiovi.  I'm here with them today to talk to them about the release of a video that captured a brutal assault that Beth suffered at the hands of a former colleague and ex boyfriend, Dalton Patterson.  

Jon and Beth reached out to me, to help them get their story out and once I seen the video, the brutality and the horror I knew that I needed to help them.  This video was released to news media's that profit from others misfortune and grief.  They are predatory and only tell the most gruesome side of the story.  Which brings me to this cemetery in Raritan, to let Jon and Beth tell their side of the story."

The camera pans back and captures Jon and Beth sitting graveside, in director chairs, of the 3 children that they have buried there.  Beth is in a flowing floral sundress, Jon is in blue jeans and a tshirt and as soon as Savannah starts to talk with them, Jon's nervous ticks kick in.

"We are here today in the cemetery where I watched Jon and Beth lay to rest, 3 of their children, whom they lost at the hands of Dalton Patterson, either directly or indirectly."  Savannah smiles at the couple, feeling an immense pride in being asked to help them, "Jon, Beth - thank you for asking me to do this with you, for you.  I can only imagine how hard this is for you, and I can't even fathom losing a child.  And you lost three.  My heart still goes out to you."

Jon clears his throat and shifts in his chair, "Thank for doing this for us.  You are the only one that we know that could pull this off, tell our story our way."

"It's my pleasure Jon.  Beth how are you doing?"  Savannah glances her way, giving her a gentle smile.  A short pause, "Thank you for letting me do this."

Beth smiles to her friend, "I'm doing good, with the exception of dealing with this media nightmare."

Savannah gives her a half smile, that looks more like a look of concern, "Shall we get started?"

Both Jon and Beth nod.

"Beth, what's the first thing that you want to say regarding the video that was released?"

"I want to say that the video is 100% accurate.  Everything in the video was as it shows.  He raped me, beat me, trashed my house, he broke my spirit, he made me think that my husband would never touch me again.  He shattered what I thought of the world, he tormented us for years but even he couldn't break us."  her words fail off with each one that she says.  "He couldn't beat us."  

Jon slides his arm over her shoulder and pulls her in tight, remembering that they are on live TV.  He shoots Savannah that crooked half smile that is as fake as fake can get, and Savannah knows what it means.  She's known Jon and Beth long enough, been around them enough to know what their body language says.  "Jon, what are your thoughts about that video being released?"

"I can't really share with you my actual thoughts of it, as we're on live tv.  The idea behind this interview is to tell the fans what happened, before they see the video so they have the premise in mind.  He's doing this just because he's evil and takes pleasure in hurting her, in hurting us and our family."

"That's apparent."  Savannah replies, "What do you want your fans to know about that night, or those nights, rather?"

"He brutalized her and beat her until he had had enough."  Was all he could say before Beth interrupted, knowing that she needed to; she could feel his anger tense in his arm.

"What we want them to know is that he raped me and terrorized our family for years.  He was the mastermind behind several cruel acts and if he didn't do it himself, he had others do it for him."  she needed a breath.  "He was able to manipulate a woman into killing our daughter.  He was able to control and deceive Dorothea.  He thought he was untouchable."

Jon jumps in, "But he wasn't.  And those that helped him, those that aided him were all brought to justice as well."

Beth nodded in agreement, "What I want the world to know, more than anything is, with the love of Jon and our family I was able to heal and recover from all of that, and even though that monster did unspeakable things, he didn't break me and he didn't break us."

"Would you say that it's brought you closer?"  Savannah gently asks.

"It could have gone either way."  Jon fesses up.  "You hear about it sometimes; couples that lose a child ending in divorce.  We can admit, there were times that we were touch and go."

"Meaning?"  Savannah questions, "You and Beth were heading toward divorce?"

"He blamed me, I blamed him.  It was ugly."  Beth starts to open up, "We have never outright said to each other that we blamed the other, but over time we realized that we were blaming each other subconsciously.  I blamed him for the one night stand and he blamed me for bringing Dalton into out lives."

"But you knew Dalton before you knew Jon."  Savannah states, in the form of a question.  

"She did know him before she met me, but that's not the point."  Jon starts to get defensive.  "And over time we learned that Melissa, or Dani what ever her name was, she was all part of Dalton's plan."

"What was Dalton's plan?"

Jon leans back, resting his right foot on his left knee, posturing away from Beth, but not intentionally.  "His plan was to have her or destroy her."  His arrogance showing in his posture, looking into the camera, "So when the coward didn't get what he wanted, he had to hurt her and then he called it love."  The stink eye set in, slightly.  

"So he wanted Beth and when he couldn't get her, he decided to hurt her?"

"We later found out that he had plans to kill us all, one by one."  Jon divulges facts not yet known to the public.  "That was never revealed in court, but we learned that he planned to take her kids from her, one by one.  Then he was going to take my kids and then me - leaving her with no one, but HIM in his mind."

The camera pans to Beth and freezes on her face.  The lens so clear it catches her eyes well up with tears.  Her right one twitching a little.  "We're guessing he thought that eventually I'd go back to him to make him stop with what he was doing?"  Beth questions, out loud trying to make it make some kind of sense to her, "He thought I'd go running to him after McKenna died."  Her head drops.

"McKenna" Savannah starts to smile, tears filling her eyes, "I remember the day that we met for coffee in the city, do you guys remember?" 

They both nod their heads yes.

"I can still see Jon holding her.  Even though she wasn't brand new, he held her like she was going to break.  But the look in your eye Jon," the camera zooms in on him, "that look in your eye, I think I've only seen it one time since then."

"We've been through alot." he replies.  

"You looked at her like she was the only thing that mattered in life."

"She kind of was." his eyes start to tear up.  "She was the one that cemented my love for Beth, my dedication to Beth.  After we lost the twins, I had no idea which way was up.  I needed to grieve, I needed to help my wife grieve along with my other children - I was a walking disaster.  And when we found out that we were pregnant with Kenna, my heart out poured like never before.  She got all the love that I had to give to the twins, but couldn't.  She was the light in the darkest of storms and when we lost her, I really lost my way."

"I could tell that she was special to you.  I could see that she had your heart."

"She still does.  They all do.  Each of them has their own little place and my love is open ended.  I will love them until the day I die."  that one lone tear rolls down his cheek, catching both Beth and Savannah by surprise.  "It's never easy to lose a child and we have lost three."

"What do you think when you hear those words, Beth?"  Savannah takes the attention off of Jon, like a seasoned journalist would do.  "Do you have anything you'd like to add to that?"

Beth wiggles in her chair a bit, lost back in the part where they blame each other.  "It breaks my heart to hear his heart break and when he talks about the twins, about McKenna I can't help but feel guilty, can you understand that?"  she looks to Jon for an answer more than she did Savannah.  "Because of me, he did all of that."

"You truly can't blame yourself Beth, you had no idea what he was capable of."  Savannah states, leaning over and placing her hand on Beth's knee.  "You never could have known he would turn into such a monster."

"He was, wait, is the devil." Jon reiterates.

"He found us one time when we were in Greece and from that moment on, we should have had around the clock security"  Beth starts to open up.  "Jon and I had broken up and I needed some rest, so I booked a trip to Greece - having no idea Jon and the band were there.  When I learned that they were, I attended the show and the rest is history.  Dalton caught us together and that's when his hell fire started to rain down."

Savannah had no idea about this.  "He caught you?"

Beth nodded, accepting that they would leave nothing out.  The world is better hearing it from Jon and Beth than they did Dalton or anyone in his circle.  "Dalton planned on meeting me there, but I went a couple of days before him.  Whether Jon and I were on a break, broken up or whatever, once I had seen him it was over.  I knew, as I have always known that he's the one for me; he's my person."

"And when she says he caught us, he literally caught us in her room."  Jon had to chuckle, remembering how funny it was at the time.  He never like Dalton and never hid that fact.  "He seen Beth laying there covered in just a sheet and I could see him turn 15 shades of red."

"What happened then?"  Savannah has to know.  In her brain, she's getting details from Jon that no one else knows - not only is she breaking a story, but she getting even juicer details.  She's in journalist heaven right now.  "How did he react?"  She leans back and soaks up what she's going to hear.

"He got loud, insulted her but left without incident.  For a second, I felt bad for the guy but that quickly passed."

"And from there, that's when all of this started?"

Again, both nod their heads.

Jon goes on, "Beth felt terrible, as that's the way that she is.  She never wants to hurt anyone and genuinely feels bad when she does."

"But was that bad enough to put her through what he put her through?  He hurt her badly, in many ways, unspeakable ways.  Do you really think that's what set him off?  Is that what made him put his plan of action in place?"

"Best we can figure."  Beth adds, "When he put it into place is no longer relevant."

Jon gets back into the conversation, "Regardless of what we had done, nothing warranted to terror he put her through."

"That's not what I'm saying."  Savannah corrects herself, "Something made him do what he did.  It obviously started from jealousy and being jilted, right?  In preparing for this interview, I was able to get some court documents and court transcripts, from visitor logs and such.  He's boasting in one interview that he needed to be sure that Beth would never be able to forget how sweet the love that they made was.  Were you intimate with him on a consensual basis, Beth?"

"NEVER!" she replies.

"You dated, but were never intimate?" she clarifies.

"I never had consensual sex with him, ever.  Not once!"

Monday, April 2, 2018

Chapter 29 - Once In A While, When I Crack A Smile



The beach with her husband was just what she needed to put everything into perspective and her thoughts in order before they meet with Savannah.  

Monday, March 19, 2018

Chapter 28 - They Don't Wash Away




The pictures of Beth and Brianna falling off of the yacht made their way to New Jersey long before Jon and the family got there. 

Thursday, February 8, 2018

Chapter 27 - Take My Hand




Jon is blind sided by her choice of places to do an interview.  He could imagine it at their house, in the backyard with the river in the footage; or maybe even in the studio's of NBC.  "The cemetery, really?"  he can't hide his shock.

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Chapter 26 - And That's Alot For Love


There was nothing that she loved more than watching her husband, her children and her friend Pete, relaxing and having fun.  

Friday, January 26, 2018